It's amazing how something as simple as change can cause so much panic. Utter the word and many people start shifting in their seats, give you the stink eye, or quite possibly run for the hills.
But it comes anyway. Even when we do everything we possibly can to prevent it.
The last year has been full of change for me. I decided to stop photographing weddings, I have cut back on all photography actually. I did all this initially to spend more time with family. Then, my world turned upside down. I lost my mom to another six letter word, a much more evil six letter word, cancer. It rocked, tilted, and skewed the world before my eyes. It was a change my family was not ready for. A change a year ago I would have never saw coming. But came it did.
We are still finding ourselves adjusting, and we will continue to adjust for a long time. It's a process... Or so they tell me.
This upcoming year is also going to hold change for me. My BABY turns five. My baby will be a baby no longer. It's been a slow change, but for some reason five feels so BIG. He's also going to be headed to school full time. A kindergarten readiness program - a step up from pre-k, designed for the young five year old! It's the perfect fit for him, he's excited, I'm excited. I'm also petrified. My BABY will be gone all. day. long. I will have six and a half hours to myself every. single. day. Sounds like a dream to many, blissful silence every day, hours to spend how you want to... But to someone who thrives in being busy, seeks out things to do, this is a nightmare.
So, what am I to do? It seemed like a good time to start seriously thinking about blogging. I blogged throughout my mom's sickness and found it therapeutic. Once she was gone, and the need for blogging stopped, I felt like something was missing. I was missing that connection without having to actually connect. I have talked to a few people about my blogging again and I have many supporters, to those people, I'd like to say THANK YOU. Your support means the world to me. To newcomers, HI!
I have this dream of being some crazy famous blogger. Of being one of those people that is read and causes laughter and tears. I want to be one of those people that causes others to think.
Now, not all of the posts will be about me, or be full of emotion, or even be written by me necessarily. (I'm thinking of having guest bloggers too!) But they will capture you, I will share what anchors, teaches, perplexes (I'm confused by nature, so this could potentially be 80% of posts!), motivates (or doesn't...), hungers (besides everything...I am the woman with the incredible growing waistband!), scares & inspires me. They will have my snark, sarcasm, and be dripping with personality.
So come and be a little less afraid of change with me. It isn't always a horrible thing.
